this is what’s been on my heart this week. I wrote it throughout the week.
feeling a little emotional tonight. maybe it’s the wine. maybe it’s the fact that my hunny is away for work [back now!]. maybe it’s the group texts….but I’m feeling it. Do yall ever get that way? Not sad, just emotional? It’s a mix of I’m-so-thankful-for-what-I-have and missing loved ones that are far away. It hurts. but it’s happy. I’m thankful for group texts that help me feel connected. a simple “I’m thinking of you, what are yall up to” starts this whole conversation that makes me laugh and smile so hard. My baylor girls. My midland girls. I know I’m more than thankful to have these two amazing groups of friends who have been there and will continue to be there – through the thick and thin. God provides people, and even if those people are far away, isn’t it amazing how connected we can feel to them? I was reading an interview by my “big sister” Jessica tonight and I was nodding my head and tearing up at the same time. Missing her, but also feeling connected. I guess that’s the power of the internet. I don’t know how many times friends far away say, “I miss you, but I feel connected to you through facebook/blog/instagram”. I love that, and I hate it. I wish there could be more face to face. I love actually talking on the phone. I know some hate it, but I would much rather talk on the phone [when I don’t have screaming kids awake] than text. I’m afraid for the next generation and I hope they know and appreciate the power of a face to face conversation. There are things that are easier to say via text/email/facebook but there are other things that make it worth it to say face to face. I miss my sisters. I want some face time with them! I dream of a sister day – talking, hanging out, having some wine, nothing special – just time with them face to face. It’s become so precious to me.
That’s all. I’m just feeling emotional this week. So beyond thankful for ALL God has blessed me with, all the friends and mentors He’s put in my life, and wanting to never forget those sweet blessings. I want to be that blessing to others. I want to be connected.