There are a lot of things I need in this season of my life, this season of motherhood and work, and being a wife and friend. I have to believe I’m not alone in having these needs either. Right now, on this Tuesday night, what I need is some time. I feel like a college student again as I walk in the quiet halls of our county library, trying to find “my spot”. ya know, the one I can kick my shoes off, plug in my headphones and turn on the lamp. I found it. and I can take a deep breath.
the end of last summer, I was really struggling. with being home all day everyday alone with the kids. I was at a high school graduation lunch and my new friend, Amanda, must have seen it all over my face. We got to talking, and she told me that something that really helped her in the very same season in her life, was when her husband offered her one night “off”. One night a week that he would come home at 6pm and she was done. I’m sure I cried a few tears of relief during our conversation finally seeing that I wasn’t alone in my struggle. I called my husband immediately after that lunch, and he said lets go.
so every tuesday since last August, I’ve had a “night off”. He comes home at 6pm [usually on the dot] and from that point on I can do whatever my heart so desires. He bathes the kids + gets them ready for bed, and cleans the kitchen, picks up the toys…ya know, all those little things us mamas do on cruise control. and I…..
well tonight I’m at the library. alone. in the quiet. writing. worshiping. just Being. and later? well, I’m going to meet the girls for a much over do margaritas on the patio
counseling session hang out time. Most of 2014 we’ve been doing a bible study on Tuesday nights at 8, so tonight is the first night back to our regular programming.
and ya know what? I love it. I need it. I used to think it was “bad” or I would feel guilty for not wanting to be home 100% of the time. but when I go away, it only makes me better. some Tuesday nights I wonder the aisles of Target or Home Goods, sometimes I go to coffee [or margs!] with friends, sometimes I just want to be alone with my words. but I need it.
so, I guess what I’m trying to say is – there is FREEDOM there. so if you are in the place of struggle, feeling suffocated or like you just need some alone time or you will scream…there is hope my dear friends. do what works for you. what works for your family. feel the freedom in it!
do you already do this? what is it that works for you? let’s encourage each other!