I know that sounds crazy, but it’s true.
I often times look back on the past 3 years and miss those hard times.
now, I don’t really want to live in darkness all the time + I’m super thankful to be on the other side, but I know it was this crazy adoption process that God used to transformed me.
through my brokenness….god restored + healed + and transformed me!
it just hit me like a ton of bricks this week at church when our pastor was preaching out of Matthew 5. Matthew 5: 4, “blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”
our pastor said, “contentment doesn’t come because of the mourning, but in what God says he will do IN THE MIDDLE of the mourning.”
its huge to know that god (in my brokenness) didn’t abadon me. I WILL be comforted! he heals and restores and transforms us!
there is a level of transformation that happens in brokenness that can’t happen any other way.
cool story – last year on my way to the created for care retreat, God was really speaking to my heart about restoration. about brokenness and restoration and honestly I thought He was just talking about OTHER peoples brokenness that leads to transformation + restoration. I was dreaming about ministry and what it looks like to minster to those who are broken. I even dreamed a logo up! broken/restored was on my heart. you can read that post here.
God so spoke to me this week in that I was once broken and He RESTORED ME!!!!
through my brokeness, he restored and healed me.
I expierenced transformation + intamacy with Him that I wouldn’t have any other way.
it was like he gave me a word for the season that was coming, and although it took a year to be fully revealed – I’m thankful He was with me the whole way!