A few weeks ago when I was with my Baylor girls, someone asked, “what would you do if you had an hour all to yourself?” My answer…go to Starbucks alone, drink some yummy drink, and write. So, here I am. Writing. I have all these feelings, all these emotions, and I’m starting to realize actually writing them down [however raw or transparent they are] will be a great gift for my kids one day. It’s summer, and summertime things aren’t as organized and structured as the fall. I’ve been “off” my blog game lately, and thats ok. I don’t want to blog JUST to blog. I want to capture memories, thoughts, moments so I don’t forget. Doing that means that I have to actually LIVE my life. and that’s what’s so beautiful about summer – forgetting the “structured routine” and getting outside and playing.
I am for sure a summer girl, [cue “I’m just a summer girl…I wear my flip flops..” ] I love being outdoors, I love the water, I love eating dinner late, sitting on the porch, I love the laid backness of summer, the no-plans, and trips with the fam. I’m getting nostalgic just thinking about it! Stephen, the kids & I packed up two weeks ago and headed to the lake for the 4th of July. We were in the car, driving and on our last stretch of road before we made it to HSB, we rolled the windows down, and turned the country music up. I don’t know how to put into words the rush of emotions I had in that moment. I was in the car, with my family, on the way to my favorite place for my favorite week of the summer. I turned around to see the kids & Camp was just dancing. I mean dancing! Kenny Chesney’s “summertime” came on and I sure did have my bare feet on the dashboard. There is just sometime about a song that makes us feel things deeper, or maybe it just helps me put into words my feelings. I can listen to a song that has an old memory for me and it just takes me back.
That moment just got me thinking, and thanking God really for the time we were having. The past 4 summers I haven’t been able to go to the lake with my family for the 4th – I’d been working for a ministry that puts on a camp, or in Africa. This year was a sweet time with my family, a nice little break. I love Brad Paisley’s song, “Beat this summer”. It came on the radio close after Kenny and and it made me cry almost. “as long as I live, whatever I do, as great as it is you know what’s a bummer..I ain’t ever gonna beat this summer with you.” God had given me this sweet time to just BE with my family. Our first summer together! I don’t deserve it, I am not entitled to it. But I am THANKFUL for it!
Our week at the lake was great! I love the traditions we’ve made going to Horseshoe Bay with my family – and I love just being together. We made so many great memories: the kids first boat ride, sister’s tubing together, july 4th boat parade, game night with the Ray’s, yummy dinners at the house, sunset cruises, early morning water skiing, Stephen and I’s stay-cation just to name a few. I hope my kids grow up loving going to the lake with everyone every 4th of July just like their mama!