there is something about getting up early in the morning + hitting the pavement that does something to my soul. I can recount many times that just getting up + working out has helped pull me out of some sort of pit. When we were waiting for our call from embassy, Jenna made me get up with her every morning and do Insanity. and today, my running shoes hit the neighborhood streets for the first time in a loooooong time. no worries that I wore my half marathon shirt from, um, 4 years ago to motivate me.
I just needed that. I need to get up early, and have some “quiet time” before the day gets crazy. I loved walking + running through the streets of our neighborhoods, wondering and thinking about all the families that live around me. [that sounds creepy, but ya know what I mean]. Just thankful to be up before the sun. It’s almost 8 am and my kids are still sleeping! I should probably get them up, as we need to leave in about 35 min for Parents Day Out. its overcast and 70 degrees outside today. a perfect fall teaser for this west Texas girl.
I was filled up this morning by Gods Word and reminded [thanks to Jesus Calling] that God is always available to us. Jesus is always available to us. the Holy Spirit is always available to us. There is nothing that can take away that love. He promises to be with us until the very end of age [Matthew 28:20]
Honestly, my cup has not been overflowing lately. I’ve been desperately seeking to be totally dependent on God alone. To know that He can and WILL use me, if I’m willing and able. Our church has been doing a series on “god moments” and this idea that if something is IMPOSSIBLE, than we know that only through GOD can we do it. Stephen + I have been searching for that “impossible” task that He has for us. Trusting that He will show us, and He will use us in His timing.
I’m reading this short book called “Dependance on the Lord” by K.P. Yohannan and so far it’s totally lined up with what I’m learning at church. Having full dependence on the Lord, and being totally dependent on HIM to do a great work in us. It quotes the verse from 2 Corinthians 4:7 that says, “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us”. some verses say “jars of clay”. It goes on to say, “the jar of clay cannot produce water in and of itself; it can only be used to pour out what it has been filled with”. yall that part got me. and todays devotional. I have “felt” distance from God. but I know the truth – God is with me! He will never leave me!
and I’m excited that tomorrow morning, I’ll start a new bible study with some gals from church. Anyone done Pricilla Shirer’s Gideon yet?
that’s all. I just had to share my heart. to give myself some grace. to remind myself of some truth. I was thinking that I probably am not the only mama who feels a little “dry” lately.
So I wanted to be praying for those of you, who like me, want to be able to be filled up so we can pour out.
ps- that pic is an update to this post. we went to bible study this morning + this was my sweet camp and asher on the “buggy”
pss- at the end for the intro for the bible study, Pricilla says, “…until your plate is filled til overflowing”. yes lord!