I have always been a floater.
When I was in high school, I was known to go to three high school football games on one Friday night. I enjoyed doing those things alone, and getting the chance to hop from school to school and friend group to friend group. In junior high and into the first year of high school I did all the sports, because I wanted to be with all the different friends. You better believe I “played” softball, basketball, ran track + cross country, played tennis and cheered. Y’all, I sucked at about all of those things but 1, but I still did it. for the variety of friends. **too bad facebook wasn’t around back then, because I can’t readily find any high school digital pics
in college, same song second verse. I would go to several parties in one night, mostly alone, so I could see all my different friends. maybe I just hated to miss out? I know I have FOMO [fear of missing out] but I think it goes deeper than that. I have always had a small “group” of friends, but still sometimes feel like a nomad. a gypsy traveler who has her foot in many different tents. I love so deeply, and I love to connect with people, that I have a big tribe.
above: my baylor besties [missing ML and Whit], we call ourselves “supper club”
below: at our engagement party, life long friends + college friends
every time I think my tribe is too big, and my heart can’t handle another soul sister, God brings one more into my life. in so many seasons of life. adoption, noonday, infertility, bloggers, conference goers, moms, church, school…the list goes on. I’m so grateful for friends that love me to no end, fight for me, want to break stuff with me when life gets hard, and then will pick me back up when I fall.
my little cross country road trip was like food for my gypsy floater soul. I loved being able to connect with friends from so many seasons of life. More than once I marveled that the Lord had blessed me with such amazing people in my life that are scattered all over the country. On my trip, my soul was fed. I was encouraged, built up, prayed for, listened to, cheered on. I spilt my guts out, discovered more about my personality than ever before, and got to know myself in a new way.
I have come to appreciate this floater gypsy soul of mine, as it’s led me to some pretty amazing relationships. Sure, sometimes it stings. it stings to be the one that everyone thinks has something to do, when I really don’t. it stings to be told, “I know you are really busy” at the beginning of a phone conversation. or to have friends think they aren’t as important to me as they really are. none of things things are true and I hope that I can be the kind of friend who’s friends know how important they are to me. and I hope that they will keep pursing me, even when it seems like there are many others doing the same. and I hope I can keep pursing them in they way they all deserve. because really, what is life without good friends?
what about you? are you a one-best-friend kind of girl or more of a floater like me?