friends, thank you for your grace.
and your patience we me. I’ve so missed this space. and you.
I really would love to know who all is out there reading?
what stage of life are you in? what season? what is your biggest obstacle? what’s your greatest dream?
what do you come to this space to find? // encouragement? stories? new places to shop? to know you aren’t alone in adoption or infertility?
I want this space to be a place where you are filled up and I also want it to be a place that gives me LIFE. and writing does just that. but before we go on….what would you like to hear about?
this place will still remain a place for me to share my thoughts, my heart, my fears and desires. a place to record the highs and lows of life. and the pieces that I share my heart have become my most favorite posts to go back to. so I’m about to get real.
but please, comment [through wordpress or Facebook!] and tell me who you are and what brings you here. I really do want to know you!
the first few weeks here have been hard. really hard. like my sweet son Camp, I too apparently really struggle with transitions. I don’t know if I just was so much of a dreamer that I assumed everything would play out perfectly here. maybe i have really high expectations. well, I know I have high expectations. i look back to our move from austin to midland that was completely different. then we were just married, no kids, and knew hardly anyone. that was such a time to find my own identity.
I learned so much those first few years who I was apart from my family and those who knew and loved me. it was painful, but it was worth it. we formed amazing relationships in midland, and built an amazing community. we were serving in local ministries and the church and by the time we left, were pretty connected. i guess i just assumed in my head that that same thing would happen here overnight. while last time we didn’t know anyone -this time we’ve been majorly connected to a community.
the people at our church have totally taken us in and for that, we are forever grateful. we are forming these friendships on a rock. it might take a while to build the history, but are headed in that direction.
i feel like i haven’t really gotten into any sort of rhythm. i have no routine. i want to get back into work, but it seems like i have no motivation. have all these great ideas and goals but something is holding me back from really going for them. is it time? am i too tired? fear? my kids really are taking every ounce of me. and it’s overwhelming. but i know that god will give me only what i can handle and there is grace enough for THAT DAY!
as I’m “wandering in the desert” I can trust that God is with me, He will never leave me and He will give me enough manna for each day. he’s asking me to TRUST him, and trust him I will.
“you keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you” Isaiah 26:3