I have some friends that ask good questions, y’all. The kind of questions that make you really think. The questions you don’t ask yourself and when you are put on the spot, you are always interested in what will come out of your mouth and heart. I’ve had a few of those conversations lately, and they all seem to center on one thing: my desire to be pregnant.
There are so many things I have wanted to share on the blog with y’all about this journey we’ve been on for 5 years, and I’ve been chicken. I’ve been waiting for the “perfect time”, I’ve been waiting until I “had it together”, but what am I really waiting for? I don’t know, but I’m tired of waiting. I have felt God nudge me on more than one occasion that He wanted me to share in this journey as it was happening. Truth be told, that’s exactly what I’ve been doing with my close friends and family around me. I’ve opened up and shared a lot about my journey through infertility and I’m glad I have. But it’s still not easy, letting people in. So why would I want to let the whole world wide web in? That’s a good question. Either I’m brave or crazy.
I keep watching people around me physically, and in my online life, be brave. Take risks and do things that are not the norm. I look at them and think, I can be brave too! But then I believe the lie that I have nothing to offer, or I don’t have it together enough to really put myself out there [even more than I already have]. But I was on a walk with a mentor of mine around our neighborhood, and she reminded me who I was. She reminded me that I am not the status quo. I am not just like all of my other friends. I do not adhere to what our culture says we should do. She reminded me of the freedom I have found in Christ, to just BE ME, and be who HE made me to be instead of what the world says I should be. She reminded me that I am a rebel who wears all Target clothes to a fancy party, and I love her for that.
so starting today I am going to just be me. I’m not going to try to fit into any “category” or be like anybody else. I am simply going to be ME. I’m going to live this one wild and crazy life God has given me to the fullest. I’m going to be brave!
pictures by Erica Sledge/accessories by Noonday Collection/dress by Altar’d State
will you hold me to it?
Hey, I'm Wynne!
Hi, friend! First, I truly am so giddy that you are here. I want you to know I believe in you and all the ways you are growing towards living a more intentional life. I genuinely hope you are encouraged from our time together here.
A little about me, I’m a type 7 on the enneagram, a total extrovert + people lover, entrepreneur, connector, storyteller, people gatherer, and passionate wife, mama + friend. I feel most alive when I’m exploring new places and surrounded by people I love. Give me a day in the outdoors disconnected from wifi, and I am a happy girl. I run on oat milk lattes, Jesus, gratitude journaling and kitchen dance parties with my four kids.
Welcome, come on in!
First, I’m sending you an internet high-five for being brave! You do it, girl! You have so much to offer! Second, I’m in a similar boat with infertility. We adopted twins but I’m still believing and longing for belly babies. It’s a strange place we’re in that’s hard to articulate to people. We just have to be brave and share our heart where it is.
Wynne, girl you are already so brave. But, I completely understand where you are coming from and where you are. Trying to balance the perfect timetable with the perfect info in just the right amount. I’m with ya and would love to share with you about just that – wanting to be pregnant. Without feeling as if I’m blaspheming NOW when I express the struggles that I have. and, the struggle with writing about the struggles. (I can’t be the ONLY infertile woman who’s experienced this…. ugh) lol….. I appreciate you and love you to the fullest!
oh, friend, please be brave! there’s so much diy this and vacation pictures that on blogs. the posts that make a difference in people’s lives are the ones where you put words to what they were feeling but couldn’t express. there are others in your shoes or others who will be. I’m anxious to hear your stories!
Love this, Wynne! You are such a lovely soul and I am happy to know you. Rooting for your bravery and thanks for the reminder to do the same for myself!
You rock “brave” Wynne! Love this. Praying for you as you step out. Love, Kristin