last night my husband Stephen asked me “what’s the hardest thing you are doing right now”. and while there are multiple things that come up on that list, it’s THIS DISCIPLINE that came to mind first. It’s been over a full week since I wrote these words, and starting LIVING THEM in my life. It’s actually 6:04am as I type this, and even though this is “hard” it’s been such a beautiful part of my days. causing me to stop and actually pay attention to my life.

I hope these words encourage you to think about what is the thing that’s been tugging at your heart, and then give you confidence to go forth and begin. simply begin. maybe that first step is setting an alarm on your phone to remind you…..

There’s something every single day that has been on my heart that I want to do and for whatever reason I haven’t done it.  I’ve wanted to WRITE.  I have a lump in my throat a little bit actually sitting down to do it.  Pushing away the distraction, abandoning my messages and all the places that are begging for me to react, to step in, to help, to move towards action.  

Do you have something that you long to do, that makes you come alive, that you just keep pushing away?

Maybe it’s not writing.  But for me it is, and all I have to say is I’m tired of putting this on the very very bottom of my priority list.  Why do I do it?  Maybe I’m afraid.  Afraid of what will come out.  Afraid of taking time away from “helping others” to do something that seems trivial and selfish.  Maybe because writing isn’t income producing.  Maybe because there are one million other things vying for my attention. 

But today I say NO MORE.  

I am worthy of taking time out of the 24 hours I’ve been given to process, to feel, to tell my story.  I will not believe the lie that it’s selfish.  Or that it has no value just because it doesn’t have “monetary” value. I heard my friend Kari say recently that “you are MOST magnetic when you are doing something that makes you come alive.”  

Living + being a part of stories of freedom, hope, friendship, and belonging MAKE ME COME ALIVE. I feel a burden to take those stories and bring them to you.  To encourage you that this community and space of belonging isn’t just for some of us, but it’s for all of us.  We are all fully capable of having vision, confidence, deep friendship, clarity of purpose and belonging.  

But guess what?

It doesn’t just happen. 

So I’m commiting.

To write.

To put my hands to the keyboard, my voice to the memo, my fingers to the caption.

To tell the story, to increase my vision, to be obedient to the things God has called me to steward.

Why am I telling you this? 

I need some accountability.  And I need some prayer! 

I truly long to use the voice, influence and platform I’ve been given to bring Glory to God and to help you see yourself in this story more clearly.  

There is no room to isolate yourself here, friend. 

This is your story too.

Ready to dig in?