my best friend Brynn says this thing to me about arrows a lot. when I tell her of yet another challenge in parenting, infertility, marriage, finances…she simply says, “it’s just another arrow in your arsenal of faith, Wynne”. It’s something I’ve swirled around in my head and heart enough to know she’s right – these challenges we face, while mostly unexpected, are just tools in my hands to grow my faith.
Through all these “arrows”, God has shown me more of himself. Psalm 34:10 says “those who seek the Lord lack no good thing”, and in the seeking – I’ve only gotten more of him. and now?
there’s a different kind of arrow.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one’s youth.
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the gate. – psalm 127:3-5
you read that right…
we are adding yet another arrow to our quiver in February!
We took these photos on the way up to American Basin in our beloved Lake, City Colorado earlier this month. This place, and the journey to get there!, is such a representation of our 7 year journey with infertility. The road was windy, long, and rocky. We couldn’t always see what was ahead, yet there was beauty in unexpected places and spots of respite and covering. It was bumpy +twisty — it was certainly a struggle. But the view! oh the joy of the view was WORTH it when you turn that last stretch and see the abundance and beauty of that basin.
struggle + beauty.
“yet you have brought us to a place of abundance” Psalm 66:12
“I believe that I will see the goodness of God in the land of the living” Psalm 27:3
It’s my prayer, that after all these years of openly sharing my struggle with infertility – that this can be a time to celebrate, and that our story would bring you a glimmer of HOPE and JOY! I can tell you honestly that I’ve battled some fear in sharing this news, knowing that there are so many others (many close to me) that are still in a season of waiting, and my heart will always be tender. I know what it’s like, and it hurts but I also know we aren’t given a spirit of fear! We are beloved sons + daughters. (I digress) I won’t give you any false hope or promises, but I want to say to the women painfully waiting: JESUS is your prize!
I know it might seem “easy” for me to say now, but truth is I’ve learned (sometimes painfully) through the years that the prize is not a baby, nor healing, nor things going the way I want them to: faith is the prize, Jesus is our prize. HE is enough! Sisters,let’s want HIM more than the “stuff” He can give us. Press into Him, seek Him, He can be trusted with your longing. He is where we put our Hope, he is our ONLY HOPE!
Proverbs 13:12 starts, “hope deferred makes the heart sick” — don’t let your hope be deferred. no matter what you are waiting on, sister. Romans 5 tells us that hope doesn’t put us to shame. dare to hope! While it is a struggle to hope, it’s something we must dare to do because putting off hope makes our heart sick.
I love this by Sara Haggerty in her post I will not defer, “my wrestle with hope is a wrestle to believe, again, that God is good…to me”
Let’s believe that while we struggle to hope, our faith will grow, and God gives us a shield of faith in our hand to extinguish the fiery darts of the evil one (Ephesians 6). You are not alone!
let’s dare to hope!
Hey, I'm Wynne!
Hi, friend! First, I truly am so giddy that you are here. I want you to know I believe in you and all the ways you are growing towards living a more intentional life. I genuinely hope you are encouraged from our time together here.
A little about me, I’m a type 7 on the enneagram, a total extrovert + people lover, entrepreneur, connector, storyteller, people gatherer, and passionate wife, mama + friend. I feel most alive when I’m exploring new places and surrounded by people I love. Give me a day in the outdoors disconnected from wifi, and I am a happy girl. I run on oat milk lattes, Jesus, gratitude journaling and kitchen dance parties with my four kids.
Welcome, come on in!
ohmygosh I totally cried reading this and I don’t even know you, personally. I’ve been reading your blog for years and I’m just SO thrilled for you and your family!! God is so good!
Celebrating big time with you tonight!! Tell us about this little one! how far along are you?! When are you due?! How are you feeling! BIG BIG HUGS my friend!!!!
What joy fills my heart! We are celebrating God’s goodness and grace!
Love from us 🙂
So beautifully written!! What a blessing! Enjoy this sweet joyful time!
I am commenting on every social media possible because I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU. praying you have no anxiety or fear in this pregnancy! ahhhh thank you for sharing your story so openly these last several years. your joy + hope + courage to carry on have been sooooo inspiring to me. and now we get to celebrate!! happy happy happy for you!
I am so excited for you. I have read many of your blog posts and prayed for you and thought about how brave and encouraging you have been to share. I know I don’t know you well but I screamed when I saw this post. Rejoicing with you and holding you and your family in my prayers. Congratulations!
Wynne!! I am crying!! Your words are such blessing and I have none. I am so happy for you and Steven and for you sharing what you have learned on your journey. What a beautiful story.
Oh! That’s so exciting! Congratulations!
Congratulations!!! God is so good! Thank you for sharing with us. I would love to hear more about your story, and was wondering if you would ever share more about anything you might have done different this time around. I, like you, have suffered from miscarriages and haven’t been able to keep a viable baby.. yet. Would you share if your doctor did or prescribed something different this time around?
Congratulations!! How cool is it that its been 7 years. God’s perfect number! What an amazing testimony of faith you and Stephen have!
Oh my goodness Wynne! Congratulations old friend! When are you due? Do you know what you’re having?
Praise the Lord! What a wonderful blessing for you all! God is good and he is to be praised!
Oh dear sweet Wynne! My heart celebrates with you this day and I thank God for His faithfulness and this delightful, wonderful gift. xoxox
Oh Wynne! I am so incredibly happy for you! And after news this morning of another loss for someone I love…it just feels like such a great reminder of our hope in Jesus. Wishing you a smooth and healthy pregnancy!!!
Congrats!! What an exciting time for your family!!
Oh this is precious, congratulations beautiful sister in Christ! <3 What a blessing! And what encouraging words. <3
Such immense JOY! Although we don’t know each other, I have followed you awhile, and know your touching story…and you were on my mind just the other day. So very happy and excited for you all! Thanking God with you! x
So exciting! Congratulations!!!
So thrilled and delighted beyond words for you, Stephen, Camp and Asher, Wynne! At long last!
Congratulations!! What an answer to prayer 🙂 Seeing your sweet bump and all of your smiling faces gave me tears of joy. Praying for your sweet, growing family.
I saw your announcement on instagram! so refreshing to hear your story, it shines of His Amazing Light and it’s a joy to share in him with you – love to you and a heart that is just full full in this good news xo
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