I really don’t even know how to start this post.  so guess I’ll just start it.

this summer, I am ready to breath deep.  to play.  to take a deep breath in, exhale out, and BE.  not to worry about deadlines, and emails, and “should I do that?” questions I constantly ask myself.  I’m ready to just be.  swim with the kids, sit outside with a book, stay up late watching friday night lights, linger over long meals with friends, road trip, go on vacation with my family, catch up with friends who live far away, pray, journal, and let my words and thoughts marinate in my own soul. 

I am so expectant for what’s to come this fall, but I feel in my spirit what needs to come first is peace and rest.

so I might not be hanging out here much the next few months, and I’m beginning to learn that that’s ok.  the world will not come crashing down when I press pause on the blog.  life goes on, and hopefully that life feels more abundant.  I want to be so full this summer, that in the fall it’s just overflowing all over the place.

So, don’t expect much around here.  I will still be posting over on instagram here but won’t be feeling pressure to post as often.  Capturing images and stories of my family is one of my favorites, so I can’t give that up – but that’s about all I’ll be doing over there.

I hope you all have an incredible summer.  take a moment for yourself – breath deep the salty air, sit outside with your favorite beverage after the kids go to bed, let your mind rest from the crazy for a bit.  I”ll see you on the flip side!

Wynne

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  • Debbe Trippet - Wise decision!ReplyCancel

  • Debbe Trippet - Wise decision!ReplyCancel

  • Caroline @ In Due Time - Enjoy your break! I do this at the beginning of every year and it’s always so refreshing!ReplyCancel

  • jessa - have fun this summer. I thought i would be blogging a lot more this year but i havent’t. it’s alright but I miss writing. Enjoy!!ReplyCancel

  • Quirkie Kids - Love!ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa Blair - I. Am. With. You. Friend. I feel invited to rest and play this summer…I feel free to BE with my people and not tied to this space and it feels right, doesn’t it? Thank you for confirming my feels. I want to see your face soon. I miss it. Also, I love you.ReplyCancel

  • Life As A Loewen - Girl, yes. First off, TOTALLY obsessed with FNL right now. It’s my and Jason’s SHOW right now. ;)

    I just love your heart and your willingness to pop in and let us all know a bit more of what’s going on in Wynne world. I hope this summer is such a beautiful, restful season for you and your family. Love you and thankful for you! <3ReplyCancel

 

 

 

 

 

 

I love my friend Laura.  Jesus, adoption, Noonday + essential oils have connected us [oh, ok and Voxer] and I appreciate her voice on this.  reading this brought me freedom – I found myself nodding my head and taking a deep breath of release.  I really hope and pray this posts allows you to take a deep breath and realize that YOU are who God made you to be.  He has uniquely gifted you and put all the love in your heart you need to pour out to your little people.  ok, I’ll stop and let Laura take over now… 

I’m convinced now more than ever that being a mom is not for the faint of heart. Having three children (Landon – 5, Charlotte – 4 and Aiden -2, and we’re in the adoption process!), there’s now no escaping the Mamahood reality. Whether I’m baking muffins, attempting to relax during their naptime or laying my head on my pillow at night, Mama is who I am, and what I do.

Whether you’re a work-outside-the-home Mama or a Mama who does her work within the walls of your house, being a Mom is the real. deal.

I’ve done both, and they both come with a unique set of challenges and joys. This current season of life has me at home, blogging, sorting endless loads of laundry and making countless†peanut butter and jellies.

While I don’t want to simply survive my days, sometimes, it sure feels that way. Get through. Make it ’til their bedtime. Hold onto whatever you can just a few minutes longer.†

I want to be a Mama who is thriving, and one who is rooted in the beauty and fullness of God, so much so that it spills over to my children.

But sometimes? Us Mama’s need to get through. I’m very imperfectly, falling-as-I-go, learning what it means to both survive†and thrive in this stage of life. Take a peek into my life as to what we do and how we trudge through, sometimes joyfully, other days agonizingly, this phase of Mamahood.

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1. Give them space

Yep, I said it. I’ve been painfully aware of how much I hover over my kids – following them around the playground like a psycho over-protective parent at the playground, instead of just letting them go and explore. I believe that quality time with your kids is of utmost importance: they need to know that Mama there, that she cares and is available. But really? Parenting expectations for our generation is sometimes just way too cray. I don’t need super fancy Pinterest projects to keep my kids engaged the entire day. Good ol’ coloring books, the outdoors and cardboard boxes are still childhood superstars.

When I give my kids space to play, I’m allowing their creativity to flow, their imaginations to run wild, and ultimately, giving them a chance to develop into the person they were created to be. Giving my kids space also allows me a chance to breath and regroup. Parenting is hard,†y’all. Get in there, read that story, play that game. And then? Go sit your beautiful behind on a chair and read a book. Crank up the tunes while you fold that 180th load of laundry.

This has been†such†a work in progress for me. I want to be more of that 1970’s mom Jen Hatmaker talks about.

2. Have a change of scenery

This is honestly hard for us. We are a one car (mini-van) family and my husband takes it to work Monday thru Friday. THANK YOU JESUS we have an elementary school across the street with four different play areas. While we don’t have a lot of places we can go on foot, just getting outside in the fresh air, having the kids run around and Mama not staring at the sticky floors makes a HUGE difference. Maybe there’s a park, museum or play center (lookin’ at you, Chick-Fil-A, my love) you can retreat to. The Bass Pro shop has practically a free aquarium (okay, large fish tank) that can offer a good 30 minutes of†sanity entertainment.

3. Live out†your gifts

Wait, what? Isn’t this suppose to be a post about life as a stay at home mom…as in, kids stuff? Yes, exactly.

I’ve found that for me to be the best Mama possible, it means that I need to find an outlet for my gifts and passions. Writing, speaking and teaching really light my fire, so I make time for things like blogging, reading, being a volunteer youth leader, etc. The gifts and passions God has given you will be uniquely yours. How can you incorporate them into your life?

For me, I’ve talked to my husband about the importance of me living out these gifts, and I am utterly grateful that he cheers me on and supports me in doing so. When I can live into the person God has designed me to be, I thrive, and my kids thrive as a result. They get to see their Mama energized, more patient and have bucket-loads more grace for them. It’s when I’m cooped up at home, longing for some alone time, some make a difference in this world time, that I get snippy, irritable and totally on-edge.

If this is a whole new realm for you, consider ONE thing you could do to live into these gifts and passions God has placed on your heart. I promise you, it’ll make a world of difference for everyone in your home.

What are your tips and tricks for surviving this Mama-life? I would love to hear your thoughts and suggestions!

Through Unspeakable Joy,

Laura

Laura is a mama of three littles {and in the adoption process}, delighting in the Gospel of grace. Attempting to be genuine and raw, Laura seeks to find the humor in everyday life. She shares her journey through faith, motherhood and marriage at Life As A Loewen blog. Passionate about issues of social justice, and always up for a Motown dance party, Laura seeks to live with spirited intentionality. Check out her blog Life As A Loewen and follow her on Instagram!” 

  • Heather - Thank you for these reminders! The last one reminded me that where my gifts and my daughter can meet is a day well-spent. I love flowers, taking long walks and exploring new areas of town. Building a day around US makes me more enthusiastic to actually teach her what I love and see things through new eyes!ReplyCancel

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recently we had company come into town.

if you are a wife/mom/homeowner, you know what that means.

clean, clean, clean.  make it look presentable.

as I spent the entire morning going above and beyond for my guests, I seriously had a heart check.

why was I doing this?  

honestly, I was doing it to APPEAR like I had it all together.  to impress them.  to show them that I could do it all AND have a clean house.

I mean, did I really need to clean the fish tank and re-organize the entire playroom?  did I really think that doing these things would earn my guests love?

no!

y’all, these “guests” were my parents.  the people that on this earth that love me unconditionally.  they’ve known me longer than any other human being, and love me more than I could realize.

it was such a heart check for me.  I knew in my heart, I was cleaning up

a. to earn their approval [that I already have]

b. to please them

c. to appear like I have it all together

and it just hit me.  I’m so thankful that we don’t have to “clean up our act” to go before the throne.  we don’t have to impress God with our housewife skills for him to love us anymore than He already does.  He meets us IN OUR MESS.  Nothing we could do could ever make him love us any more, or any less.  

Matthew 5:8 says, “blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God”.

I don’t know about you, but I want to see God.  I want my heart to be pure.  I want my motives to be in check.  I want to put off “appearances” and truly desire to please the Lord above all else [and above all people].

if you aren’t following along with IF Equip as we journey through the Sermon on the Mount, join us! http://www.ifequip.com/

  • Allison Ramsing - So good and so true! It’s beautiful that God meets us in our mess.ReplyCancel

  • Melinda Adams - Yup!! Well Said!!!ReplyCancel

  • Hannah Bunker - So good!

    Also, do you happen to remember the name of that paint color on your wall? Because I have to paint something that color. Beautiful!ReplyCancel

Wynne here, checking in for therapy writing alone time.  on this LAST day of school for the year….

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I take a deep breath in and out, smile at the woman across from me at the coffee shop, take a big sip of my sweet eugene latte, blast austin stone worship in my ears and settle in….

It’s been quite a few months of transition.  Time to sit down and process through writing has been limited, but as I stood in the parking lot with my new friend Tara this morning I’m reminded that God gave me this gift + this outlet, and I need to use it.  I will not be the mom, friend, sister, mercy-giver that He’s made me to be unless I myself am filled up.  In my filling up, I then overflow onto my children, my husband, our community, and the people the Lord has put in my path.  

It’s purely the mercy of God that I am in this place.  from the desert to this rainy town.  there are days I look through old pictures from our former life in Midland and miss it deeply.  I miss the familiarity, the known, the comfort, the rhythm, the people, my porch.  I start to realize I don’t have all of those things here yet, or not fully yet.  but looking back causes my heart to flutter, my hands to sweat, and me to doubt.  but doubt what?  doubt what I know.  doubt the HOPE I have in Christ.

I know in my spirit that the Lord asked us to lay down our lives, leave what we knew, and HE alone called us here.  it’s exciting, really.  but after the excitement and newness wears off, real life begins.  new rhythms, new people, new environment, and a level of un-comfofortableness that I used to crave [in theory].

you see, our lives have ALREADY been gloriously ruined.  right?  I got this.  Our lives were flipped upside down before, remember?  the whole adoption thing? the whole Africa missions thing?  changing the way we purchase, recycle, give, live.  Lord, I’ve already opened my hands for you to give and take.  Now?  We’ve got this.  you’ve called us here, and we said yes!  isn’t that enough Lord? 

oh friends, even typing that I have knots in my stomach.  to hear and feel the CLINCHED FISTS that I currently have.  Why must I be so terrified to open them up and tell God he can have ANYTHING?

I know that the Lord moved us out of the desert to this town full of trees for a reason.  for more than one reason.  and while we’ve been obedient to COME and to say YES, there’s more that He wants from us.  I know in my spirit WRECKING and RUINING is coming again.  but with that…BREAKTHROUGH and more freedom than I can dare to imagine. 

I know it is.

now is the time to open my clinched fists.

to tell the Lord He can do whatever He wants with us.

to present my body as a LIVING SACRIFICE.  [romans 12:1]

there is such hope friends, even when we are afraid.

I clearly don’t have it figured out.  I’m in the middle of the struggle yet again.  I’m asking, searching the scripture, praying, talking crying it out with good friends who listen and council me, shakily holding up my hands to the one who loves me and gave his life to set me free.  victory is ours for the taking, friends.

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I love that as I was browsing my pictures for this post, I came across this one.  It makes me stop and actually breathe for the first time since I started writing.  Isaiah 43:19 [not 44…]

what’s holding you back from giving Jesus all? and what’s a truth you can speak over your situation? 

thankful to be walking this road alongside of you.

  • Kiersten - Oh sweet sister. You and your words have such sweet and perfect timing. I have been feeling this growing sense of GOD preparing to do something to gloriously ruin my life and it has me wanting to run for the hills. But I know I too need to open my clenched fists. And let HIM do whatever it is HE wants. Here is to walking this road together (though miles apart) and learning to just let GOD work.

    stay strong sweet Wynne!ReplyCancel

  • The Quick Journey - Oh, this is some good stuff. Growing has its pains and its victories. These words are such a blessing to those whose ears they fall upon.ReplyCancel

I want to live a truly good story.

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and not for the reasons I might think.  Upon further inspection, I realize I want to live a good story for me.  for my family, for my children, for my transformation, for my character.  not for others, or for acclimation, or fame.

God is the master storyteller  and he handpicked this specific time on planet earth for me to dwell here.  truly “for such a time as this”.  it’s so easy for me to think I have control over my story and the timing of the story god is writing.  but my life expiereces aren’t random.  they are all apart of a bigger story.

the transformation God is working in my life is also for the people in my life.  since I don’t live a life huddled up at home, my life and my people’s lives are intertwined.  

if I change and transform, that spills out naturally from me and onto the people around me.

I’ve been re-reading a favorite book of mine, Donald Millers A million miles in a thousand years, and I love this quote about the transformation change…

“the thing we were meant to live through was designed to change us.  The point of a story is the character arc, the change.”  

I can say wholeheartedly that the story God is writing in my life, although it’s not one I would have dreamed up or chosen for myself, is indeed changing me.  It’s transforming me, drawing me nearer to himself.  The story of infertility that has been woven into my story the past 5-6 years has changed me.  It’s made me different than I was before, and honestly if I would have skipped this part of my story somehow, I would not be the me I am now. 

I am grateful for this part of my story, this event that drastically changed the course of my life has changed me.  There came a point in the story that God asked me if I trusted him, if I trusted that He would write my story better than I ever could…and again and again I have to surrender my plans, my dreams, my life to him.  for His ways are higher than my ways, his thoughts are higher than my thoughts as Isaiah 55 says.

and this story is NOT just about me.

I remember so vividly when our story was about to take a drastic left turn, God had led me on to this line of thinking.

just like his timing was perfect for MY life and my story, so was his timing for any future children he might bring into our family.  

Once you get a taste for a truly good story, an epic adventure, a risk that turns into reward, you want more.

You want it not only for you, but for your friends, for your people.  You want those around you to experience the joy and meaning that comes from taking risks, getting out of their comfort zones, and going on adventurers.

think about your own story – is it the story you want to live?

  • The Kayla Ross - Your speaking to my heart today. I recently just got done reading a book that talked a lot about Gods timing and being thankful for every part of every season, because his timing and vision is the best. It is comforting. I’ve been praying to let go and live. Just as I am now, because I’m suppose to be at this exact place. Thank you for this message.
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  • Lauren - Oh such goodness here. That Donald Miller quote is perfect. Perfect for how my heart is feeling these days.ReplyCancel