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Happy middle of the week friends!  Just wanted to pop in and say hello, and say I have loved hearing from you the past week!  I love hearing what some of your favorite pieces are from the new Noonday fall line – and wanted to say congrats to Danielle Martino for winning the ruffled make up bag!  She also will get some yummy Rodan + Fields product from my long time friend, Nicole Binniker [who has also become a Noonday shopper!]  If you haven’t had a chance to make it to a trunk show this season yet, you are going to want to do that!  If you don’t know who the ambassador is in your area, go to this link + scroll to the bottom to find “connect with your local ambassador”.  The home office team will connect you, it’s that easy!

So Danielle, you can put your Rodan + Fields broad spectrum powder + lip shield in your Noonday ruffled makeup bag!

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I also loved reading through all of your submissions for why you want to win my copy of Jen Hatmakers revised and expanded, Interrupted!  So many of you ladies are seeking, and searching and excited that God is opening your world view and wrecking your comfortable christiantiy.  and I want to encourage you, even if you don’t win this book – head over to amazon, or barnes + noble and get yourself one!  better yet, get two and pass one along to a friend?  The winner of this book is Grace Cho.  Congrats friend!

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I just love that when God is speaking to me, He is so obvious.  He’s poured into me so much this week through His Word, through ASK CBS ministry, through Mid Cities girls night, IF Equip Galatians study and I’m so thankful.  It was just what my soul needed to recharge and be filled to overflowing again.  I hope this encourages you to seek the Lord, to ask Him to fill you, ask Him to put people and ministry opportunities in your path that will draw you closer to him.  He is faithful, and he will do it.

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This weekend I’m headed outta town for the first ever Royal Daughters Glampout in Fredricksberg, Texas put on by the Beloved Society…led by my dear friends Alison + Beth.  If you are a mom or a wife and you are cautious to leave your family for a weekend – let me just encourage you that it is time well spent.  There is something about leaving all the daily duties behind, and getting in your car, or on an airplane, and driving away from it all for a few days.  I can speak from personal experience – but it only makes me a better wife and mom.  Getting away to be refreshed, spending time in Gods word, fellowshiping, eating yummy food, and late nights in jammies talking with your girlfriends…it is for sure food for my soul.

So I can’t wait for the glampout, and Jenna’s yummy food, and fancy dress up night, and sitting around the campfire, and breathing in the hill country for the weekend.  Me, Wendy, Jody and Sarah will be taking off from Midland Friday and I might be counting down the days.  There’s also something special about getting outta town with the girlfriends you do life with in your community.  I haven’t gotten to do this with most of this crew yet, so…lots of stories to come I’m sure!

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I hope you all have a happy weekend!  I might be popping back in this week with an encouraging word, or I might not see you until next week:) that’s what the freedom of the last week of summer means right?

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In December of 2011, I first told you about this book that was wrecking my thoughts and thinking.  It was called Interuppted, and it’s written by Jen Hatmaker.  I did a little review on it here, but basically what you need to know is God used that book to speak to me at the beginning of my life “interrupted”.  Stephen + I had just gotten home a few months earlier from our first mission trip to Africa, and our dossier [to adopt] had been in Ethiopia just a few short months.  I was for sure searching, and seeking, and wondering what it really meant to live missionally.  To live wrecked, interrupted, and gloriously ruined.   I remember having a lot of questions, a lot of fear, and wondering how to live now that my eyes had been opened – and Jen’s book let me know that we weren’t alone out in those waters.  As I said in 2011, reading this book & starting to pray about living missionally has already started to transform my thinking

Enter July 2014, I was in Rwanda with Noonday + IJM sitting next to said author as she told me about her revised and expanded version of Interuppted.  I knew right then I needed to re-read it.  It was an honor to sit in that coffee shop that day and tell Jen that her voice has been one God has used in my life, and in our generation, to unlock scriptures and teaching for many.

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If you have, or even if you haven’t, read any of Jen’s books – I would say (and she says too) THIS is the one to read.  Without this book, she couldn’t have written 7 – this was the “prequel” as she says to 7.  This book is her heartbeat.  The revised + expanded version has so much to offer – not only new material but notes from her husband Brandon and much more.  I mean the title just grabs you: Interuppted: when Jesus wrecks your comfortable christianity.  It’s the story of God taking the Hatmakers and plucking them out of ” complacent, comfortable, safe Christianity” and dropping them into “the deep end of struggle, injustice, brokenness, and a hurting humanity”.

Has God done that to you?  Has he opened your eyes to the hurting world around you and you just don’t know what to DO with it?  Have you been in church all your life, like me, but missed some key scriptures about the poor and oppressed? You aren’t alone, sister.  Let this book help mobilize you, educate you, convict you, and push you out towards what you are called to do.

I’ve loved re-reading this book, as the Lord is not done with us.  He is continually wrecking our lives for Him and His glory and it’s books and writers like this one that help push us out the door.  I don’t have it all together, I have so much more to learn, and God has so much left to speak to me.  Reading this book 3 years into this journey He’s called us on, is even more confirmation that the best is yet to come.

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Until reading this book, and hearing Jen speak several times, I hadn’t ever heard someone be so real about our interpretations of several scriptures talking about the poor.  This is what I mean…

“hey, here’s something crazy:  In the Word, poverty, widows, huger – these are not metaphors. There are billions of lambs that literally need to be fed.  WITH FOOD” 

I know reading this book will open your eyes and your heart to understand the scriptures we’ve read over and over, even deeper.  It’s not easy, y’all, but it’s important.  Will you take the challenge and pray about what could happen when we fully surrender, and allow Jesus to completely wreck and interrupt our lives?  

I’m giving away 1 paperback copy of Interrupted today – simply comment and tell me why you want to get your hands on a copy of this book.  Winner will be chosen at random on Wednesday.

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Jan Hatmaker is the author of 7: An Experimental Mutiny Against Excess and A Modern Girl’s Bible Study series. With a heart for her generation, she speaks at conferences around the country. Jen resides in Austin, Texas, with her husband, Brandon, and their five children. To learn more about Jen and follow her blog, go to www.jenhatmaker.com.

 

  • Elizabeth - Two of my favorite “internet people”! You and Jen Hatmaker! I’m about to finish the 7 Bible Study and I just absolutely LOVE her! I’d love to read Interrupted as well!ReplyCancel

  • Sara Newberry Harms - i would love to win a copy of this book because i want to give it to the friend who told me about Interrupted the first time! she’s a mom with four (count ‘em, four!) kiddos and i would love to bless her with a copy. i have mine on order from NavPress…can not wait!ReplyCancel

  • Brittany Liggitt - I want my life to make a difference.ReplyCancel

  • Erin Williams - After reading your thoughts on this book, I feel like it’s exactly where I am right now…wanting to know and explore how we can live missionally in the midst of everyday life. I immediately wanted to buy the book but I have just recommitted myself to our budget and I have no more “blow” money. So if I don’t win, I’ll just have to wait until next month:)ReplyCancel

  • Mindy Reeves - I think that every Christian woman could use an interruption to her busy life trying to juggle her family and faith. This sounds like a book that I need to read!!!ReplyCancel

  • Carrie - This book has been on my wish list for a while now. God has been breaking my heart for what breaks His over the last few years, and I’ve made some progress toward pursuing Him and others in that. I still feel like I have so much to learn in this area and I think “Interrupted” would be so helpful!ReplyCancel

  • Ali - Amidst infertility treatments, adoption, and a move to a new state (literally in a week), I feel like I’ve put faith on the back burner…. again … even though I’m craving that connection. This seems like a good place to start!ReplyCancel

  • Caroline - I have never read this, but would love to! What an impact it would have if we all lived interrupted! Love the title and summary! Love getting wrecked in the spirit!ReplyCancel

  • Caeli - Would love this book! It sounds amazing and just what I need at the point I’m at in life. My comfortable Christianity is being tested big time and I am fearful but also very excited for where God is taking me!!ReplyCancel

  • Grace Cho - I would love to win one to go through with the girl I mentor!ReplyCancel

  • Ali - I’d love to win a copy! I just finished reading Radical by David Platt and this sounds like it has a similar heartbeat.ReplyCancel

  • Rebekah - I am in the middle of God stirring up my heart. I am searching for the next steps and trying to live in the moment and just love on those around me. I would love to read this book!!ReplyCancel

  • kimberly oyler - oh i’d love this! i am almost done reading 7 (finally) and would love to read this!ReplyCancel

  • Megan - I would like to read Interrupted because I’m at a flexible point in my life (done with school, but no marriage or kids) and facing endless possibilities of what living missionally would look like for me. Should I adopt? Should I look for a different job? Should I move somewhere? I have a hard time balancing the idea that God has me right where he wants me with me worrying that I’ve got it all wrong and actually I’m just being complacent and missing some higher calling. At the same time, it feels like for now at least, my place is my 9-5 job. I hope that reading Interrupted will help me figure out what I can do for the poor and oppressed when my full time job is not helping the poor and oppressed. Sometimes I feel envious of people who know exactly what they’re supposed to do to help because besides giving money to causes, I don’t know what that looks like for me. Anyway, that is a really long answer to the question, but I hope Interrupted will help me work through some of those things! Thanks for doing the giveaway!ReplyCancel

  • Jessica Mumford - I DO think I have become too comfortable with my faith. Starting our Ethiopian adoption process 2 years ago, I started becoming wrecked for people living in poverty. And now, still going through this loooon enduring adoption process, I think I need a heart change to remind me what God says about living missionally and serving others, giving our lives to Him and His people.ReplyCancel

  • Katlyn Brekke - I’m the a-type, schedule driven, don’t do well with surprises or change in life kinda gal. I like to be in control and know what’s coming around the corner so I have time to prepare for it. Yet, I know that’s not putting my trust in Him, opposed to being open to the idea of change, the unknown, God’s “schedule” not mine. I need a welcome interruption!ReplyCancel

  • Laura - I’ve been so excited and scared to read this! I would love a copy of Interrupted.ReplyCancel

  • Katy Stone - I’ve heard such good things about this book. This is the first time in our marriage that we have been “settled” in one place longer than a year. While that’s been a good thing in SO many ways, I’ve found myself lately becoming complacent and I hate that. Looking (first to scripture, of course) for something to read to bring a little kick in the “spiritual pants”! :) ReplyCancel

I have this constant need.

it’s a need for time + space.  but, I know I’m not the only one that has that need.  we all would probably elect to add more hours to our day if it were humanly possible.  but the good Lord gifted us with 24 hours in each day for a reason, and so that’s the time frame we get to work with.

I don’t want to say it’s not enough, because of the aforementioned gift from God, but some days it feels like it’s not.

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the days are long and the years are short – right?  just about every time I think about that quote as a mother of little ones, I get a little misty eyed.  for the love, I know the years are short.  most days that makes me really sad – longing for time to slow down, time to stop, and my babies to be babies forever.  but to be honest, the days right now seem very long.

yesterday I didn’t leave the house, or get out of my pajamas per say.  my sweet husband came to our rescue earlier than most afternoons, and gave me some time to find my own time and space.  and for that I am very grateful.

friends ask me every day, “how was Africa”.  it’s such a loaded question, and one I cannot answer in the form that I would answer a “how was your weekend” question.  I want to tell them, and some days I have the energy and space to do so, and some days (like this day) I just said ” I don’t know.  I haven’t had the time to process”.

I’m learning so much about myself, and what I need and where I thrive.  I love to be around people – I love to be creating, and connecting, and sharing stories and life.  I feel alive when I’m traveling and trying new experiences and going on adventures with my family.  I like to mix things up, and always have something to look forward to, something to dream of.

earlier this week, my sweet Asher didn’t want to nap so we cuddled on the couch, had some popcorn, and watched Tangled.  I had never seen it, but pretty much cried through the whole thing.  I love the part at the end where Rapunzle + Eugene are in the boat about to see the lights and she says something like “what if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?”  and Eugene says, it will.  she responds, what if it is, what do I do then? …” well that’s the good part I guess, you get to go and find a new dream” 

This year has been full.  major full.  dreams fulfilled – amazing experiences and trips, Africa twice, the opportunity to share the story God is writing for my life – and now…now I feel like it’s all over.  I cried over Tangled I think because it made me realize it WAS all I expected.  and it’s over.  but the good news is… I can go out and dream a new dream.

Where it gets tricky, is I am still processing and thinking and living through the dreams I’ve been living.  I still want to tell those stories, and share lessons learned, and make photo books of the past few months.  I don’t want it to be over – yet I’m ready for the next dream. it’s a weird place.  I want to tell you more about it.  I want to write about it because writing is my form of therapy.  Even if no one reads, I would still write.  Writing helps me see more clearly, express my thoughts in a way I can’t do when I speak or think them.  I just started Aly Vesterfelts new ebook, writing to find yourself, and I love it already…

“Writing is healing. Writing is cheap therapy. Writing can help you find yourself. That is what brings me back to this terrible, treacherous, incredibly painful, slowly-but-surely process day-after-day. Not the number of copies I’ve sold. It’s the knowledge that writing is intrinsically valuable. I tend to get out even more than I put in. “

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so here’s to two more weeks until my kiddos are back at school + this mama has her brain back.  I crave that time alone, in a coffee shop, with my fingers on the keyboard.  I have so many stories to share.  life to dissect.  feelings to feel and experiences to process.  hang in there with me, will ya?

  • erika - “what if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?” and Eugene says, it will. she responds, what if it is, what do I do then? …” well that’s the good part I guess, you get to go and find a new dream”

    ugh. hits me right there. because i have that same fear. when it’s a dream, when it’s not tangible, it’s almost a comfort of something magical to look forward to, because what if when i get there, it’s not right? sometimes dreaming and not doing anything feels safer.

    thinking of you + praying for time for to process for you.ReplyCancel

    • Wynne - thank you friend. i’m glad it made sense to someone and wasn’t totally out of left field! what happens when the dream is complete? then what? that’s what i’m thinking about and processing now. thank you for your prayers!ReplyCancel

If you are here from the ambassador blog train, welcome!  I’m excited to join this train of world changing women once again to bring awareness and excitement around our new fall 2014 line!  If this is your first stop, visit precious Ethiopian adoptive mama, Shannon’s giveaway from yesterday  and visit Emily’s later today!   I absolutly am in LOVE with the new line and think you will too!  I want to share a few of my favorite pieces from the fall line, and give away one of my favorite new pieces from our Rwandan group that I’ve come to love so dearly.  I hope you see through these images, that these women are just like you and me.  They have joy, they cook dinner for their families, they entertain their neighbors, they have a love and passion for their children, they have deep passion for what they do which in turns gives ME great passion for what I do.

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“the moment” for me on the #StyleForJustice trip was the first day we pulled up to the sewing co-op.  I was the first one out of the bus, and I couldn’t wait to put my arms around those sweet women who I sat across the living room with three years ago.  Words fail me to tell you how welcomed and loved I felt to walk into their studio and their lives.  Triple kisses on the cheek followed by a long hug made my heart feel at home.  Tears filled my eyes as I thought of the hundreds of customers I have back at home who proudly wear their items, and are exposed to their stories at my trunk shows.  With shaky hands and pounding heart I told them that they gave me purpose.  Their passion + purpose in their work, only gave me more passion and purpose in my work to be their ambassador.

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last week was such a crazy, god-authored week.  all the emotions from our #StyleForJustice trip came back up.  I’m a delayed processor, and so there’s so many more “nuggets” to come from that trip.  but watching this short film about our trip made it all so real and tender again.  seeing the faces of my Rwandan friends on the video, hearing the shakiness in my voice and seeing the tears in my eyes.  it’s all real.  my passion for Noonday Collection and the over 2,000 artisans in over 10 countries around the world is only grown deeper.  more fiery.  [is that a word?].

that first day at the co-op that I spoke of above, was one that dreams are made of.  this is what I wrote that day:

“Standing in front of our Noonday Collection sewing co-op today, was a brave friend of mine, who through tears, told our seamstresses how much of a dream fulfilled today was.  A day she has been dreaming of, hoping for, and 3 years ago wasn’t sure it would be a reality.  The picture she painted was of all our artisans, and ambassadors holding hands around the world and lifting us up.

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If I could bottle up the joy and pride that exuded from every single one of our seamstresses today, I would.  I would do anything for you to have been there.  To feel the warmth of their hugs and genuine thanks on their lips. I wish you could have been there to hold my hand as I was holding back my own happy tears.  This is why I do what I do.  These women.  They inspire me, empower me, and are the reason I spend hours every week loading + unloading a car full of samples, driving to a friends houses’ and telling their stories.”

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in honor of these joy filled, amazing women, I’m giving away one of their beautiful products:

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the ruffled make up bag, made with love in Rwanda

a Rafflecopter giveaway

enter between now + monday at midnight to win!  ps – if you aren’t already follow the ambassador style challenge on instagram this week with the hashtag #noondaystyle for ideas of how to style your new fall pieces!

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shop my faves and the rest of the line here!

photos by Paige Knusden 

  • Caroline - Love the noonday stuff, including the earrings :) ReplyCancel

  • Jen - Love reading your heart as a noonday ambassador. So much fun to see the new pieces!ReplyCancel

  • Leeanna H - The rustic leather tote!ReplyCancel

  • Chelsey - I am loving the Sofia wrap!ReplyCancel

  • Rachael B - The silver jasmine earrings are so pretty.ReplyCancel

  • Erin D. - the sofiya bracelet!ReplyCancel

  • Katy Owens - So fun you got to visit the women you’ve been partnering with!

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE the silver trinity necklace set of 3. The combo is wonderful together!ReplyCancel

  • Emily - That leather baaaag = happy happy joy joy!ReplyCancel

  • Jessica Mumford - Love these bags and adore your stories!ReplyCancel

  • Robin - I really love the Calypso earrings. Or maybe a new sterling circle necklace because my son pulled on mine and broke it today.ReplyCancel

  • Megan B - I love all of the stuff, but especially the make-up bag and scarves!ReplyCancel

  • B.Therese - This is so great, love all the joy in the photos!ReplyCancel

  • Melissa - I would love the Jalia Ombre Necklace!ReplyCancel

  • Mandy Marous - I am loving the scattered stones necklace in plum!!ReplyCancel

  • Mindy A - I LOVE the Rustic Leather Tote!ReplyCancel

  • danielle m. - love the kantha bag!! just ordered it!ReplyCancel

  • Sara Gruber - Love the leather bag!!!ReplyCancel

this is “part 2″ from last week’s there is always hope post on infertility.

grief. [active processing of pain and hurt in my life]

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it hasn’t been something I’ve dealt with much. Mostly I guess because I haven’t “lost” much.  and partly because I’ve come to learn that I apparently try to avoid pain.  So grief is not something I think about often.  but I’m learning about it now…. after we had ” the best news” we had the worst news. my nurse from my fertility doctor called to tell me I wasn’t pregnant anymore.  my levels had gone down, and I needed to keep going to get blood work the next few days to confirm then went all the way down. I was on the other line with my best friend Brynn when the nurse called and honestly after I got off the phone I just started bawling.  The kids were napping, and I called Stephen and he raced home to hold me and cry with me.  Besides going to get blood work done several more times that week, the rest of the week was a blur.  Like I don’t remember at all what happened after that.  Sorta like I don’t remember the first few days home with the kids…strage… we lost it. our miracle baby was gone. it wasn’t looking amazing to begin with, but I had hope.  I didn’t know what those numbers meant.  I saw a pregnancy line, and a positive blood work test and immediately my heart soared.  I was elated.  God had blessed us with a baby!  My dreams were coming true! then they crashed down. what I lack in remembrance from that hard season, I make up for in remember the conversations I had with other women who had experienced the same thing in the weeks and months to come. pretty much every woman that I shared this with, that had also experienced the pain of loss, looked me in the eyes and said “I am so sorry for your loss”.  most of the time they had tears in their eyes too.  I loved that.  they saw me!  they knew!  they and been there and they were ok now. God often uses other people to speak to me – and He did just that through my good friend Casey at Hope Spoken in March. She sat on stage and shared with us, that through her own loss and grief she learned that “you can’t judge someone else’s grief”  For some reason, God used that to set me free.  Free from feeling like because I wasn’t pregnant for that long, that I didn’t really know anything about loss.  Freedom from worrying about what other people think of me + how I greive.  Freedom from having to carry it alone.
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Our last small group session at Hope Spoken {in which I was technically leading} I about lost it, emotionally.  I don’t know if I’ve ever felt that run down, broken, alone.  The group dynamic changed, and it turned to them consoling and counseling me.  Something had been broken in me, and I needed to explore what that meant.  I learned that day, and the days and weeks to come, that grief is healthy.  Being upset, sad, and mourning the loss of what could have been is healthy.  God is the one who can handle my frustration and disappointment.  I can in fact turn to him, 1 Peter 5:7 says “cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”  God welcomes us when we turn to him and bring him our pain. One of our pastors in a sermon called SCARS this past spring said, “it’s not a lack of faith to acknowledge the pain”.  and that set me free too!  Brokenness hurts, it’s painful, and we have to acknowledge it.  The other word that hits home to me is disappointment – “when we hope for something and it doesn’t happen”.  I think that’s the biggest loss here for me.  I had hoped to see a positive on a pregnancy stick for almost 5 years.  When that positive showed up, my whole world changed, and I had hope again, and when we got the call, you can imagine the disappointment that set in. So while we must “go there” with the pain, disappointment and protest to God….we can’t STAY there.  At some point, we have to come to accept it.  We have to relinquish what cannot be explained, and accept what we cannot change.  So what then?  We must fight, everyday, to remember who God is!  We have to look through the lens of Gods heart and character for us. some of my favorite scriptures that I can’t get enough of in this season….. Psalm 107, Isaiah 55:6-9, Hebrews 12:1-13, Romans 4:16-25, Isaiah 61:1-3, Psalm 46:4-7,  , 1 Peter 1:3-9 God is sovereign, and He is in control.  He can use anything – and He can even use and redeem my grief, loss, and pain to come alongside someone else who is suffering so I can “pass along” the grace and comfort I’ve been given. (2 Corinthians 1:3-6) That’s why I’m sharing this with you.  I hope you know you aren’t alone, and I hope you know wherever you are in the grieving process, God is right there with you.  He fiercely loves you and you HAVE to hang onto the truth of that, even when it doesn’t make sense.  God is for you, sweet sister, and He will not leave you or forsake you.  (Deuteronomy 31:6) If you need someone to talk to, comment on this post and I’d love to visit – and it’s my hope that others who are hurting will be commenting and we can just all be in this together, encouraging and supporting each other.  Hang in there, sister!
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Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.
 For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” Isaiah 43:1-3

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may our hope continue to be in CHRIST ALONE.  

  • Lauren Casper - I love you. That is all.ReplyCancel

  • Sarah Beth - Oh, Wynne…. So much love and oh, how I know… So grateful for what God is teaching you and for the courage He’s instilled so that you share your story. More women need to hear it’s okay to grieve! And that we are free from judging another’s grief because Christ is tender to love and redeem. Thank you for these words!ReplyCancel

  • Elizabeth - I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine getting such good news followed by such devastating news. :( I need people too!ReplyCancel

    • Elizabeth - Whoops! I wrote the wrong blog address!! The correct one is davidandelizabethadopt.blogspot.com. Although I haven’t talked about our TTC process again since our main focus in our adopting again. But, it’s hard when neither of those processes are going well. :/ http://davidandelizabethadopt.blogspot.com/ReplyCancel

  • Catherine - so very sorry for your loss. i am a momma who knows loss as well. it is sweet to look back at those moments where God alone held you and encouraged you through His Word.ReplyCancel

  • Tiffany - I thank you again for your vulnerability as you share your story. We need more brave truth tellers like you.ReplyCancel

  • Terri - Thank you, friend, for such sweet encouragement! You are right on. You know, something God has shown through this season is that if I were to get pregnant when I wanted to and had a full term pregnancy, I would not be where I am now with my relationship with Christ! I have grown so much through all of this!!! I love the Mercy Me song “bring the Rain”…..
    “Bring me joy, bring me peace
    Bring the chance to be free
    Bring me anything that brings You glory
    And I know there’ll be days
    When this life brings me pain
    But if that’s what it takes to praise You
    Jesus, bring the rain”
    It doesn’t seem like it at the time, but It’s so worth going through the pain just bring him Glory and be closer to Him.
    Someday, sweet friend, we will get to hold our sweet babies and oh what a joyous time that will be. But until then, let unite together uplifting one another and spurring each other on to trust HIS perfect plan for us!ReplyCancel

  • Nicki - Thank you for sharing your heart. We lost our sweet baby 4 years ago at 11 weeks and I dealt with many of the same things of which you spoke. I even had someone very close to me say to me the morning after we found out that the baby’s heart had stopped, “Were you up ALL night crying?” Like she couldn’t believe that I would still be crying over our loss. But for the most part, people understood and loved us through it. I still think about the baby and rejoice at the thought of meeting him/her one day in heaven. My oldest who was almost 4 at the time, talks about the baby and is also excited about meeting him one day (he’s really hoping it’s a brother since he is stuck with a pesky three year old sister here on earth ReplyCancel

  • rachaelb - This post touched me. Thank you. I suffered a miscarriage about a year ago, and I am so sorry for your loss as well. To the outside looking in, it may not seem like we “lost” anything (after all, we never held the baby in our arms), but I think that sometimes grief comes from losing things we hope for, even if our hopes were never fully realized. Miscarriage is a loss. But you are right, we have a Living Hope. His compassions are new every morning. May God give you blessings far beyond what you can even hope for or imagine.ReplyCancel